Upon settling into his inaugural Astoria, Queens, residence in 2015, the author embarked on establishing new local routines, with securing a reliable barber being paramount. Hairdresser allegiance held significant personal importance, a sentiment widely shared among men, often likened to an unwritten contract. Memories of childhood haircuts with the same Italian barber, Mario, alongside his father and brother, cemented this belief. Later, venturing into New York City independently, the author frequented Astor Place Hairstylists, exclusively seeking out Benny, his preferred stylist, and would reschedule if Benny wasn't available. The thought of entrusting his hair to a new barber always seemed a risky endeavor, as a subpar haircut, unlike a disappointing meal, leaves a lasting impression visible in every reflection for weeks.
Relocating to a new borough introduced complexities. Embracing a new chapter of self-discovery and independent living as a gay man, the author initially followed a roommate's recommendation to a barbershop where a Spanish barber inadvertently gave him a razor-shaved hard part, a style he now views with regret. Subsequently, having adjusted to his new apartment, he explored a dating application called Scruff, a less intense alternative to Grindr, populated by profiles of hirsute men and some anonymous torsos, largely with similar intentions. Amidst this digital landscape, he encountered another Sean, spelled identically to his own name, which he optimistically interpreted as a sign of dependability.
Sean, who worked at Otis & Finn, an LGBTQIA-owned and operated barbershop in Long Island City, represented a different path for the author's evolving identity. The prospect of meeting someone from a dating app in a professional setting felt potentially awkward. However, Sean, acknowledging the initial strangeness of online encounters for professional services, also recognized the importance of his work. While he admitted finding the author attractive, their initial flirtation quickly shifted toward a genuine friendship, rather than a romantic connection. Sean observed that the author sought a confidant and honest feedback, not just a casual encounter.
The excellent haircut was surpassed by the quality of their conversations. The author became a regular, making the two-mile journey every two weeks, even when his hair didn't strictly require it. Sean, relatively new to barbering in 2018 after initially considering a career in therapy, found his calling in the barber's chair, where he could listen to clients' life stories while enhancing their appearance. The author consistently followed Sean through various career transitions and personal milestones, including the pandemic's early days and multiple changes in barbershop locations. He jokingly referred to his need for regular cuts as "haircut separation anxiety." Eventually, Sean established his own shop, Pretty Dapper, in 2024, where the author continues to be a devoted, pre-booked client.
The bond with a barber often transcends mere grooming, evolving into a unique form of trust and companionship. As a therapist, Dipesh Patel, notes, the "side-by-side" dynamic of a haircut, without direct eye contact, fosters open conversation and reduces vulnerability. This routine, with the same person and rhythm, contributes to a rich social narrative over time. For the author, Sean has witnessed nearly a decade of personal growth, offering support during job losses, financial difficulties, and his journey toward independence and self-discovery. Their shared identity as gay men further deepens their connection, providing a sense of understanding without the need for constant explanation. This enduring relationship, humorously dubbed the longest of the author's life, exemplifies how a connection, even one beginning with other possibilities, can transform into an invaluable, non-romantic bond built on trust and mutual respect.